So, my internet went down and I lost my blog...
So now I am going to list my 5 most UNfavorite things:
1. Internet suddenly deciding not to work and losing a like four page blog :\
2. Self-absorbed people
3. Getting a bad grade on a paper/test (really, really don't like this one!)
4. Running late for an appointment
5. LOAN STUFF (aaaaaarg!)
Now, for something lighter.
Here are my 5 most favorite things:
1. Sunny days :)
2. Seeing people that just genuially care about me
3. Playing a nice game of Wii bowling with Alex Wennerberg (good times!)
4. Catching up with a friend I haven't talked to in forever (Kandyce, that one's for you!)
5. Going to work and having it be a GREAT day :)
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Stressin' out does no good; so why do I do it?
August is now only three days away. Three whole, not so far away days. It's freaking me out.
Summer is usually a time for relaxation, and stress-free weekends, but at this minute I'm not feeling so relaxed. I'm not feeling so stress-free.
I recently applied for a loan, but to my dismay, realized I had applied for the wrong one.
Thus, the knot in my stomach came into being.
Realizing my mistake, I cancelled the loan and frantically starting searching a new PRIVATE loan. Scouring the internet I came across this website, and within moments I was a applying for a loan for the sum amount of $19,200 dollars. Yes, somewhat frightening. The thing with loans is that, is hits you about half way into the application process that, just in a matter of maybe a week you will now be in debt. You will owe money, that you do not have, and really, can't even imagine having.
This was the point where the knot in my stomach became a monster, writhing and wriggling inside my stomach.
Last night I finished up the application process. All I have to do now is wait. Waiting, in my opinion is the hardest test God gives us. Waiting requires patience, relience on God, and confidence that it will all work out. Sometimes these requirements are easier, mostly always, said than done. Waiting requires us to pass through this limbo stage in which we are unsure and unstable, and most of all uncertain. Uncertainity has always been my greatest fear. Knowing that I can't see the outcome; that my fate, so to speak, is up to someone else besides me, frightens me. The big picture is that I am not the one certifying my loan, guaranteeing myself a spot in college, or even giving myself the amount of hours on my work schedule needed to pay my bills. All I can really do it pray.
But maybe that's all I really NEED to do. These trials and times of struggle we are put through, may seem like sufferings to us, but to God they are tests. Tests that challenge our worldy way of thinking and self relience so that we can totally and sincerely realize that all we need, all we have ever needed was Christ. He alone can make the things we desire and wish for happen.
*God, I pray that everything will work out. God, I pray that I will not rely on what I have and what I can do, but what You can do through me. I give all this to You. Amen.
Summer is usually a time for relaxation, and stress-free weekends, but at this minute I'm not feeling so relaxed. I'm not feeling so stress-free.
I recently applied for a loan, but to my dismay, realized I had applied for the wrong one.
Thus, the knot in my stomach came into being.
Realizing my mistake, I cancelled the loan and frantically starting searching a new PRIVATE loan. Scouring the internet I came across this website, and within moments I was a applying for a loan for the sum amount of $19,200 dollars. Yes, somewhat frightening. The thing with loans is that, is hits you about half way into the application process that, just in a matter of maybe a week you will now be in debt. You will owe money, that you do not have, and really, can't even imagine having.
This was the point where the knot in my stomach became a monster, writhing and wriggling inside my stomach.
Last night I finished up the application process. All I have to do now is wait. Waiting, in my opinion is the hardest test God gives us. Waiting requires patience, relience on God, and confidence that it will all work out. Sometimes these requirements are easier, mostly always, said than done. Waiting requires us to pass through this limbo stage in which we are unsure and unstable, and most of all uncertain. Uncertainity has always been my greatest fear. Knowing that I can't see the outcome; that my fate, so to speak, is up to someone else besides me, frightens me. The big picture is that I am not the one certifying my loan, guaranteeing myself a spot in college, or even giving myself the amount of hours on my work schedule needed to pay my bills. All I can really do it pray.
But maybe that's all I really NEED to do. These trials and times of struggle we are put through, may seem like sufferings to us, but to God they are tests. Tests that challenge our worldy way of thinking and self relience so that we can totally and sincerely realize that all we need, all we have ever needed was Christ. He alone can make the things we desire and wish for happen.
*God, I pray that everything will work out. God, I pray that I will not rely on what I have and what I can do, but what You can do through me. I give all this to You. Amen.
Monday, July 27, 2009
Ground Rules.
I started a blog about 6 months ago, I was faithful in my blogging for about 2 weeks. Then, the "cloud" of inspiration passed and the blog was no more.
I was recently struck with the idea I should start another blog when I read my coworker's blog and was transfixed with the ideas he laid out for others, or possibily just for himself, to see. Writing has always been a way in which I was able to release energy. Whether a bad day or good, it always seemed to calmed the nerves, and with preparations for college and so forth around the corner, I think I need the release. So, with this blog, I vow a start of a new era. A blogging era. I pledge to blog faithfully. I'm not sure what that will look like, and perhaps I will have to map-out what that actually looks like in the future, only time will tell. In the meantime however, faithfully means at least weekly. Hopefully almost daily. I cannot promise all my blogs will be exciting, or even thrilling, but I do promise I will, most definately and certainly, blog. I will blog about the last few weeks of summer, the things I see and hear, and in the future, my days at the university (which is all together a most frightening thing). From hence forth, I Gabrielle Robbins, vow to blog to the best of my abilities.
And so, it starts.
Thus, concludes the end of the ground rules.
I was recently struck with the idea I should start another blog when I read my coworker's blog and was transfixed with the ideas he laid out for others, or possibily just for himself, to see. Writing has always been a way in which I was able to release energy. Whether a bad day or good, it always seemed to calmed the nerves, and with preparations for college and so forth around the corner, I think I need the release. So, with this blog, I vow a start of a new era. A blogging era. I pledge to blog faithfully. I'm not sure what that will look like, and perhaps I will have to map-out what that actually looks like in the future, only time will tell. In the meantime however, faithfully means at least weekly. Hopefully almost daily. I cannot promise all my blogs will be exciting, or even thrilling, but I do promise I will, most definately and certainly, blog. I will blog about the last few weeks of summer, the things I see and hear, and in the future, my days at the university (which is all together a most frightening thing). From hence forth, I Gabrielle Robbins, vow to blog to the best of my abilities.
And so, it starts.
Thus, concludes the end of the ground rules.
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